The Reason

There is no such thing as coincidence, only fate, and fate was the reason I revived this little rabbit hole of mine.

It all started last August 2014, I came to know someone who happens to make my heart race in the most comforting way!

It was mid January 2016 when I realized that I could share, in words, all these feelings and emotions that I have been silently keeping for him.

For one, I am not a sweet talker, he is. 

Whenever I feel happy or "kilig" as we Cebuanos coin the feeling of inloveness if there's a word for it, I just keep it. 

Keep it until it becomes a barrier so strong even I could not break.

But just this month, we came into this big big fight on our monthsary. Because I did not came on the time we agreed on and we ended up not seeing each other. I tried calling him for like 20 times but he ignored me. So I broke up with him. I usually am like that.

He tried calling and texting me by the morning but i ignored him. Still because I'm like that. Partly because I came to realize that we were slowly drifting apart. He changed. In a not so good way.

We talked and I told him what I've observed, even crying because I was hurt with the way things are. With the coldness in his eyes, he told me he was slowly losing his feelings. Kinda shocked and kinda slapped, I just stared at him. He asked for space. I can't give it to him. I don't see the point. Why would you ask space when you're losing your feelings, it's like adding more reasons to lose your feelings. As the saying goes, out of sight out of mind.

We officially broke up.

And so, instead of reviving this to share cute, sweet and forever-ish things I will post nonsense feelings that goes nowhere.