It was a night like any other nights, we were outside talking about everything reachable by the human brains, because we click that way.
But actually, it was the night where I was dead serious on cutting him out of my system. I was tired of our mutually unlabeled relationship. I was tired of feeling like I am begging for his attention and time, I was tired of it all. I was tired of being tired. Aside from the fact that I'm nt used to being in this kind of set up, I'm also nt used to being treated this way! He seems like he is nt serious and sincere, he was good with actions bt was unable to clearly explain it with words.
As I counted the things that needs to be stopped with our plight, he looked at me like how he looked at the sky with all the twinkling stars, his favorite; stars. I don't know what he was thinking that time, I want to hug him and tell him everything will be alright, the same words that I badly needed to hear. Bt nothing came out, nothing happened, we just stood there in silence. Stared at each other, calculating our next move, or the next move of the other one. It did nt look good in any angle. It was bad, we were drifting apart, slowly. Then he asked, "why is this happening?"
.. .
Silence
I don't want to feel any of what I'm feeling right now. I'd rather feel nothing at all. So I will let you go.
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how to die an awful death.
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