Reaching

After my first break up, I started hating my phone. It is useless and seems to do nothing bt remind me of the person who's supposed to be texting me. Which I do not enjoy. I was used to having someone at constant communication. 

When I met T, and started exchanging messages with him. I learned the art of replying after, two or three minutes or maybe five or 10. He does nt reply instantly. He once told me that it cn either he's doing something (wc apparently is at all times, based on his replying schemes) or he fell asleep (wc I've experienced a couple of times). 

The one above, is an example of our exchanges. What difference does today have than the other? As you can read in the convo, my last message was me informing him that I already forgot his voice and face~

After that last message, he called, only to remind me of his voice. I was kinda happy with what he did. I told him if he was alarmed that I've already forgotten his voice and face, then he told me he just pitied me cause I was like a kid. It was a cute gesture, and I know that he was joking and that he was alarmed (his veeeery sarcastic) I told him I now remembered and we jumped in to a new convo. There's just lot's of things that I want to tell him. He asked me to sing a song. He sang me a song last time so he is asking me now to sing him a song too. I sang him a few lines of Reaching, it is a Christian song that I was singing since I woke up. For your reference visit this: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UByrCER9Ppw


I never realized how happy and excited I was while telling him snippets of the things that I wanted to tell him face to face until my sister snapped at me telling me to go out because I was very noisy. I remembered what I've read in Nisekoi, it's a Japanese comics that I follow. The story is about a guy who likes two girls, bt in the end he must choose only one. He was in a crossroad when his bestfriend told him about some small points he might want to consider to know who he loves. Here's a screenshot of what his bestfriend said:

This made the guy realize who he really loves. Although I did nt fully believed, the things that the bestfriend said stayed in my mind. I can't seem to forget it. So every time I find something, or experience something, I always take note of the first person that I want to tell it to.

For now, I'm beginning to be grateful with my phone again, nt because it keeps me at constant commu with T, bt because it taught me to wait and to give space and time to things. And that, nt all things needs to be told thru messages. Talking in person is way better.

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